May: 25

I don't know how to begin this one. I turned 25 in May. 

I wanted to focus on my relationships this past month - my relationships with my friends, family, co-workers. It was an interesting experience and I am so very grateful for the people in my life who make it worth living. One lesson that I was forced to learn before 25, that life is teaching me always, is that I only have me, myself, and I to rely on. And it was different learning this lesson again, at such a transitioning point in my life.

I'm glad I learned it again. The feeling of loneliness turn to solitude. Whether it is being surrounded by people I love and not feeling understood or being surrounded by people and feeling alone. Life is lonely, we come here alone and leave alone, and it's okay. 

The longer I spend time alone, the more that's all I crave. A warm bed to myself. A warmer bath to myself. And sure, people spend time creating and developing and maintaining relationships - I do, too - there's nothing like developing and maintaining the relationship you have with yourself. 

That's what I've done this past month, prepared myself to keep taking care of myself.